Friday, April 13, 2012

I need to trust in Him...but it's so hard sometimes

Jesus looked at them and said, “For human beings this is impossible, but for God all things are possible.”
And everyone who has given up houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or children or lands for the sake of my name will receive a hundred times more, and will inherit eternal life.
~ Matthew 19:26, 29

How true this is?  Lord, I wish I had the patience to wait.

This evening one of my teens said, "Deepa, is the only thing standing in your way of entering money?"

The only thing I have left is personal debt, everything else has been accounted for.  
That little grapevine fundraiser therometer to your right is actually only part of what's left.  I have exactly $10,083 left.  If nothing else happens, I can stay at my job until June 8, and I sell everything that I have left for what I'd like to sell it for, then I might just squeeze by and be able to enter, God-willing, on Friday, June 15th, the Feast of the Sacred Heart.

My van has to sell for at least $4600 over what's left on the loan ($4200).  I have to sell my Iphone 4 for the amount of my early termination fee which should be around $300.
And, then there's the techie items and such I have left ~ CrockPot, Food processor, Cooler #1, Cooler #2, iHome, Laptop, Digital Video Camera, Digital Camera, GOgroove FlexSmart, Kindle Fire, GPS, ipod nano, clothes and odds and ends.

Its stressful.  And, yes, I am worried that I won't have enough, or that I won't be able to sell my car or the other items for the amount that I need.  Aiyyyy!  

I trust in God.  I've been trying to do all that I can to prepare.  I trust that His plan is best.  But, I also freak out because work could totally tell me that I have to resign in May so that our assistant youth minister can take over for me.

I need to trust.  It's just that its getting oh-so-much closer and I am slowly stressing out.

Please pray for me.  And I for you.  Pray for a financial miracle of at least $1000 of this remaining debt to be taken care of by a donor or donors.  Because I'm not sure if my math is correct.  And, I honestly don't know how I'll get back to Summit if I have any debt remaining after my last paycheck.

Also, please share my testimony with others.  You never know if God has told them to give, but no one's asked.   

Thank you for listening.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I have contributed a few small "widow's mites" to your cause. Why don't you have a fundraiser? People love to gather together for a cause. Have a "silent auction" of some of your things, and things folks donate. Serve food, maybe wine, have music, sing, dance,and celebrate!
So far that little vine on the side has done pretty good with the watching and praying. Now is the time for action! Good luck, and God bless.