Tuesday, December 29, 2009

I love you, O my God!

This is how I am at the moment -  SO full of Joy, I feel I might burst!  Jesus, I feel, is making my heart larger so that I can Love in a larger capacity more than ever before!

I found this great quote from the Cure of Ars:

I love you, O my God, and my only desire is to love you until the last breath of my life. I love you, O my infinitely lovable God, and I would rather die loving you, than live without loving you. I love you, Lord, and the only grace I ask is to love you eternally. . . . My God, if my tongue cannot say in every moment that I love you, I want my heart to repeat it to you as often as I draw breath.

you can find it in your local CCC in paragraph 2658!

Merry 5th day of Christmas!

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Breath of Heaven

Today was a day created by God.

I had planned on going over to a friend's house to exchange gifts. And, before I left the house, I was in daily prayer. I got a new book "Signs of Life" by Scott Hahn. I was reading and then contemplating the chapter about The Sign of Cross. I really prayed that simple and most profound prayer.

Then, my phone rang; it was an unfamiliar number. I almost always screen my calls. I did for this one. Then the ring tone for a message. I listened to it on the way down the stairs. It was a message from one of my mom's co-workers. Oh My Gosh. "Jesus, you are my Rock."

My mom works at a children's hospital. Her co-workers are pretty much her best friends. They immediately went into action - checked her bp, and it was high. They started asking all sorts of questions. My mom was diagnosed with vertigo a few years ago. And, today, when she started feeling dizzy, she was making her way to her purse for her pills. Well, she didn't make it. The room started spinning and her co-workers called an ambulance.

She was taken to the hospital that is LITERALLY across the street. After many tests and 6 hours, she was told the vertigo she experienced was due to an inner ear infection. She left with a bill of good health and a letter stating she can go back to work.

During this event today, she was covered in prayer. I txt my prayer warriors with updates. And they txt those in the different social circles I flit about in. All in all, I believe over 100 people were interceding for her.

Plus, it brought us all together - family and friends. I also learned something new about myself - I can stay calm in a family crisis. As Long As I Trust Completely In God! As long as I place myself and loved one in God's care. As long as I lift up my needs/wants to God in prayer.

Jesus is utterly amazing! My life now is nothing like I ever imagined it would be. And, its ALL because of the Glory of God. The mystery of it all. Ahh! I love Jesus, and am so content with the fact that I have the priviledge of knowing HIM - our Lord and Savior and Breath of Heaven.

Sunday, December 20, 2009


I love holding babies! Thank You to all my married friends with little ones who give me the opportunity to be maternal. I love the priviledge.

Tonight was girls' night in. Snacking on popcorn, semi-homemade cookies, and water. We all watched "Julie & Julia" starring Meryl Streep and Amy Adams.

Afterwards, my lovely friends went for a dip in the hot tub, as I forgot my suit. And, I was about to leave early, when C started wiggling in the pack n play. Knowing that my lovely friend needed some mommy alone time, I scooped C up and cradled her.

Loved it!

I'm getting used to this. And, in proper order, if it be God's will, I too will be given that priviledge.

The Christ child is arriving shortly. Oh, how I love the season of advent. The preparation. The waiting. The gift.

Friday, December 11, 2009

St John of the Cross

I have been in a funk. a 18-month funk. I've reached the bottom. the glass is cracked in many different places and held together by post-it notes...yeah, its mucky over here.

I've missed hanging out with Him. I've missed our chats. I've missed Him. I've been selfish. I've been childish. I've thrown hissy-fits. I've just been a dork.

Today, though after constant calling and sweet nothings whispered in my ear, I finally sat down and said 'I'm sorry.' I sat and said, 'I'm here. I don't know what to say. But, I'm here.' We sat and I listened. I listened to LOVE speak. I absorbed. A smile finally cracked on my face.

And, I left singing, 'I wanna hold your hand. I wanna hold your hand.'

I opened the door again, and He's back in my life!

He NEVER gives up. NEVER stops pursuing us. NEVER goes away. He is the light in my darkness.

Thursday, December 3, 2009

3 out of 4 will NOT receive a grant unless we help

The following video is from Mater Ecclesiae Fund for Vocations. They are the very generous and kind people that gave me a grant back in 2007 to enter religious life. Please pass this video along to all you know!