Wednesday, May 11, 2011
What is written on my heart? Jesus' Love.
So many months spent without Him. My face is veiled. I am unworthy. To even be asked again. To be pursued. I am in want of Him. My entire self needs Him.
Summit. I want those 4 walls to envelope me. In there, my whole self is given.
I gave myself to Him Most High though I held back. I held tightly to home. It is no accident I still know Summit's schedule.
Sometimes I wish I had spoken of my fears. But it is out in the world that I acknowledged them. I have so much more to give over.
My desire is to grow in relationship with Him. I ponder Him who sets my heart free.
God keeps calling; and I can't refuse Him any longer. My desire to be with Him is greater than my desire for youth ministry. I desire to return to Summit to continue my discernment to become completely His as a Dominican nun.
I'm currently trying to pay down my debt as fast as I can. I'm going to apply for a St Joseph Grant through the Mater Ecclesiae Fund for Vocations to pay off my student loan debt.